i really like to write. i may be no good at it, but i enjoy it...i find it therapeutic. so....here's my first stab at writing. i've been thinking for a long time about starting a blog, but like many other things in my life, i just think, rarely act. so i decided to try something new...actually doing it. maybe i should be like george costanza, "do the opposite".
while researching how to start a blog, i read that one of the most important things about your blog is to write about something you enjoy and/or are knowledgeable in. well, the main premise behind my blog is going to be the struggles and difficulties of pregnancy and motherhood. that's right...i certainly have not enjoyed my pregnancies and some of the outcomes, but i've definitely become and expert at grieving and loss. i titled this blog "no sugar coat" for a good reason. i am so tired of everything i see in the media showing a glorious and hopeful outcome to pregnancies. think about it...all the commercials you see advertising pregnancy tests and the woman excitedly tells her husband on the phone that they're going to have a baby. let me tell you something sweetheart, getting a positive pregnancy test in no way, shape or form means that in nine months you're going to pop out a healthy baby.
so, this blog is for those of us mothers who have to live in the harsh reality of loss and grief. that's exactly how i see it...tv and movies, not pregnancy reality. my life...pregnancy reality.
a few caveats....i tend to be bitter and angry a lot of the time, however i'd like to think that i also have a softer and much more caring side to me. but...how many people do you know that vent about how perfect things are??? i try very hard not to be negative ALL the time. basically, i'll try to keep the negativity to a dull roar, but damn it life isn't always wonderful...there's "no sugar coat". oh, i also tend to swear like a drunken sailor...it's not something i'm particularly proud of but again, it's reality. again, i'll try to keep it to a minimum. and i also never capitalize things...i don't like to think of it as being lazy...more like "energy efficient".
till next time.....